asmr girlfriend videos
Do I enjoy being cooked? - I'm not sure
I used to watch these asmr videos because then I'd feel some semblance of love. Not to say my family don't love me, but I struggle to actually feel anything. My parents might say that they love me, but I don't register that.
I never want to feel that lonely ever again. I hate how quicklly I get emotionally attached to people.
It gets to a point where I've started to run out of ways to cope.
It started with reading, then youtube, then fanfiction or sth, then manwha, then manga, then youtube and round we go.
I jump from cope to cope, and it's like why am I even alive at this point, to indulge in cope?